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| Weekend. Spent the weekend with my friends, so nice. :) I had a sleepover with my friend Emilie, we went driving around with some girls and then wound up at a bush party. It turned out to be super lame and sketchy, so we just left after about twenty minutes. So we bought some chips and dip and had a girls night, lame but super fun. Had some fun with a camera, as you will seee. Ahahah.
 I got a kitten! He is so cute and I named him Toby. He's so cute, and it is simple but is the perfect name for him. Right now he is in my sweater, resting on my boobs, clawing the shit out of my face. He's a charmer :) Things are great with the boyfriend. We are so happy, I love him. :) We cleaned his room yesterday and had a blast, surprisingly. He got Toby's sister, so I brought him over to play and they had a blast, but getting work done was super hard, any work we would get done, the two of them would destroyy the garbage bags and make it all messy again. I've been spending alot of time at the gym lately, which is super fun and hopefully will pay off quickly. Life is good. :) Mwahhh. <3 | | |
| So, I'm sure I've mentioned on here that my dream is to become a photographer. I'm completely in love with it, and I seem to actually have talent at it - finally, something! - so Ive really been pursuing it. Part of that, has been me posting my pictures on facebook and flickr, for friends to see and to get other people's feedback . I haven't really gotten around to it on here yet, but your going to see some in this post.
So yesterday I get a text from a friend saying that I had to go look at this girl Keighlan's profile picture. Now, I'm a junior in high school. This is a freshman, only in my school, freshman means grade eight. So, technically, a middle-schooler. Her profile picture, was this:
And my original photo? Was this:
 Coincidence? Somehow, I don't think so. I confronted her about the fact that a) you can't just steal someone's artwork and edit it to look like your own. b) you cant just steal someone's artwork and edit it to look like you, (making the figure fatter) and c) YOU DO NOT STEAL SOMEONE'S GODDAMN ARTWORK AND COLOR IT IN TO LOOK LIKE A TWO YEAR OLD EDITED IT. Am I wrong? Arghh. Sorry. Anger burst. Once I confronted her, her arguement was that she had no idea it was mine because she found it on photobucket. Funny, however, 'cause I never put any of my photos on photobucket, for that exact reason. People take them and then try to pass them off as their own. So I told her I found that interesting because I don't use photobucket, and because it would have been so much easier for her to just have gotten it off my photo album. But no, apparently thats just a funny little coinky-dink. :P Point is, she then quickly deleted it and me as a friend. Which, I'm very okay with. I guess I'm just wondering how to proceed. What would you do ? Here are some of my other photos, I just want to share them with you. Obviously, I trust you all :P
 
As you can probably tell, I have a thing for silhouettes,black and whites and gorgeous skies. :) Let me know what you think. | | |
| For a year and a half, I was very bulimic. I'm 5'9", and I had at one point been down to about 118 pounds. If you knew my body type - i have E cup boobs - thats much too small. I was getting so unhealthy and I wasn't planning on stopping; I never felt I looked good enough. When Kody and I got together, he helped me through it so much, and its been nine months now since I last purged. But lately, I have been feeling like I've gotten so out of control, my weight. As if my body just completely turned on me and I have been trying to hit the gym about four times a week. But doing so, I have been becoming more and more concious of my weight and the fact that I need to lose some. I want to be small. I feel disgusting. The temptation of going back to puking.Is just so strong.
This, was what I looked like when I was puking.
And this.. is me now.
Completely . Fucking. Disgusting. | | |
| So I figured I'd come up with a really POWW title, to catch your attention. Did it work? :P I've been trying to figure out for a little while now, when enough is enough. When we should let things go.. And when I should realize that what happened over the summer is over. And when I should learn to trust my boyfriend again. Because he really has done everything he possibly can to show me he is trustworthy. But still , I can't even think about what was said and done over the past three months without feeling sick to my stomach. How do I move on? How do I move past it? I don't know what to do. Any advice?
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